MyaRose, welcome to the family. We are here for you. This is such a sad and difficult time in your life!
It's so good that you are going to try and find a counselor. This is so important. As parents we take on all of our children's problems as our own. Throw grandchildren into the mix and now it is that much harder!
I have had so many doctors and counselors tell me " Look - you're a mom, and you want to fix everything. But you can't." Frustrating as that is, it's true.
The best thing that you can do right now is to take care of yourself. When you are strong in this difficult situation then you are equipped to be strong to deal with your daughter and your grandchildren.
What questions do you have for us?