Hi! Welcome!
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I'm so sorry you're having to deal with this. As you've learned, stressful life events (like having a baby) can really trigger BPD episodes.
I can understand how this situation would cause you a lot of stress and anxiety.
What are you doing to take care of yourself? Do you have friends and family you can lean on for a support system? This board can be a support for you, too, but flesh-and-blood humans are a big help. Where is your baby? Are the two of you in any sort of contact?
Keep posting! You're not alone!
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