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 81 
 on: June 13, 2026, 01:12:18 PM  
Started by Rapt Reader - Last post by ammabear
What type of relationship are you in?
I am a mom to 8, and our udBPD son is 18 years old. 
 
Who else (if anyone), in child's family, has BPD?
I don’t know, I have wondered.
 
What is your child's strongest quality?
 My  son has a knack for mechanics, he can be kind, and mannerly. He can also be athletic. He loves his extended family a lot.
 
What are the top challenges your child is facing?
 Aside from the BPD, he is depressive, oppositional and defiant. He is also addicted to video games and very immature. He did not graduate high school because he was too busy playing games.
 
What do you find most difficult in dealing with your child?
 His splits, and rage, especially since it is towards me. Immaturity, lack of motivation, and negativity.
 
How would you categorize your child? Diagnosed? Undiagnosed?
 Undiagnosed
 
What do you struggle with yourself?
 Currently I struggle with deflecting his hate and rage against me. Setting hard boundaries and following through. I have also really struggled in trying to keep this all in believing it was not as bad as it was and I felt embarrassed.
 
Is anyone in therapy? Child? Parents?
 If so, what types?

 No, we have done therapy off and on. We need to get that going again with my myself and the siblings that are still with us.
 
What are your goals at bpdfamily.com?
 To of course get support and help. We need resources and guidance, insurance permitting. I don’t want to feel alone anymore in this.
 
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 82 
 on: June 13, 2026, 12:19:47 PM  
Started by Superdog - Last post by Pook075
Thank you.  What has kept us together has been faith and family values but I fear it is no longer enough. I don't think I have the strength anymore for the ups and downs. Before my chronic condition progressed, I grounded him. I weathered his tirades and did what I could to keep it away from the kids.

I am compassionate to his problems but I'm worn down.  I don't have the energy for it anymore because I need a low stress environment..  I have to feel physically well to deal with it and now it just feels plan cruel when he's acting out when he knows it could cause me harm.



Let me ask- would your husband consider active therapy if given an ultimatum?  Would he consider marriage counseling?  For your health, something has to change and he will likely be resistant to it.  You'll have to initiate that change though to drive the conversations.

 83 
 on: June 13, 2026, 10:24:54 AM  
Started by Hopesmart88 - Last post by Hopesmart88
You all are the only people I can think of to help me think through this. It’s been a long time since I’ve written on the boards, I don’t even remember my old username. Update: Current status, divorced, ex-husband uBPD/NPD, our only child, a son recently turned 13. Son and I lived with protection orders against husband from 2018, long custody battle, legal to include criminal case he didn’t go to prison for, and I had sole custody, until the judge decided to “make up for lost parenting time”, and sent son to live with his father, at age 10. Father has done A LOT to retaliate, along the lines of limiting son’s conversations with me, via coercive control. It’s been rough, but I’m ok, son seems ok enough.

Here’s where I am: son comes to me for summer vacations and every other Christmas /Thanksgiving, and we share custody a long distance, it requires unaccompanied minor plane tickets.

My son is here for the summer! He turned 13 this past spring. I have always provided him with a Verizon Gizmo watch, and a TracFone, so that he can call for help if he’s in trouble. Dad can’t turn off the Gizmo and has no access to parental controls to turn it off. He can take it from him, and son would have to choose to tell if bad things are happening. So far, he has not disclosed anything, he’s probably protecting his father, but, I want to hope for the best and not assume the worst.

I promised my son an iPhone for his birthday, and with that comes, Apple Family Sharing. I’m the account manager. But son is 13 and *could* remove himself from the family in Apple, Apple allows that at age 13.

Here’s where I need wisdom for anyone who has lived this controlling, manipulative coparenting meanness.
While I have my son and the new iPhone I just bought him here for the summer,  what settings, apps, etc. does anyone know of to front load me with discernment and wisdom? I sense there could be trouble on the horizon, and I can feel that I don’t know what I don’t know. I don’t want to find out the hard way.

Can anyone give me a heads up, from experience? What could go wrong, and how could I possibly prevent whatever that is?

Thanks!!


 84 
 on: June 12, 2026, 11:18:40 PM  
Started by Superdog - Last post by Superdog
Thank you.  What has kept us together has been faith and family values but I fear it is no longer enough. I don't think I have the strength anymore for the ups and downs. Before my chronic condition progressed, I grounded him. I weathered his tirades and did what I could to keep it away from the kids.

I am compassionate to his problems but I'm worn down.  I don't have the energy for it anymore because I need a low stress environment..  I have to feel physically well to deal with it and now it just feels plan cruel when he's acting out when he knows it could cause me harm.


 85 
 on: June 12, 2026, 07:52:39 PM  
Started by Superdog - Last post by CC43
So I wonder if we will ever have a truly close relationship or is it just a mother caring about her son.  For example he is not going to be part of my medical care (living will) because I cannot trust him to make decisions on my behalf if am unable to.  I have not told him this because it would start all sorts of stress but it has to be in place.

I'd say that the reality with untreated BPD is that the relationship is mainly one-sided:  all take and no give.  Relationships even with treated, stabilized BPD can still feel lopsided.  I confess, I have felt much less hurt and disappointment when I maintain extremely low relationship expectations of my BPD stepdaughter.  I don't expect any thank yous or sorrys.  I don't expect courtesy calls or texts (e.g. if she decides to stand me up for dinner).  I don't expect her to show any interest in my life such as asking, How are you?  I don't expect her to wish her dad Happy Birthday or Happy Father's Day.  My policy is to invite her to Christmas and buy her presents, but if she doesn't show up, I will put the gifts aside, to give her on another occasion or maybe give them to someone else.  The reason I do this is because, when she's a no-show, she's tacitly communicating her need for space, and I will respect that.  Sometimes she'll be nice and act in a civil manner, and my attitude is, that's a nice change.  But history has taught me that with her, things tend to be temporary, and to expect a permanent change is bound to disappoint.  The kind way to say this is that it's all she can handle to get through the day, and expecting her to be nice to me or her dad, let alone do something for us, is just beyond her capabilities right now.  I'd rather see her focus her finite emotional resources and energy on her own life than "spending" it on doing something nice for her dad or me.  It's better for her that way, as there's less emotional baggage getting in her way.

As for something like a living will, the pwBPD in my life wouldn't be an appropriate representative or power of attorney, no way, because she simply cannot think in terms of other people's best interests and their wishes over hers.  Moreover, she is overwhelmed by mundane day-to-day affairs; I think she couldn't handle a high-stress, emotionaly-charged, administratively complex situation like end-of-life decision-making on someone else's behalf.  I recently went through that situation with my now-deceased father, who succumbed to cancer.  The entire ordeal was extremely stressful for me, combining the loss of a parent with the duties of being a living will representative / PoA / executor.  For context, I feel I'm generally emotionally tough and very capable when it comes to legal/financial/medical administration/logistical matters, which is probably why my parents chose me for this responsibility over other siblings, though they are very competent as well.  There was a point when I made medical and other decisions for my dad (together with my mom), when his periods of lucidity had faded in the last few months of life, and he wasn't deemed competent anymore.  In some ways I regret not becoming his proxy (i.e. taking over) earlier, but I didn't have the heart to take away control from him, when he was still "there," at least part of the day--because feeling in control was so important to him.  There was a dynamic near the end when my mom couldn't convince him to do what was best for him (e.g. take his medicine, bathe, clean his sores), and I was "the only person he'd listen to"--hence the need for a proxy.  Anyway, the whole ordeal wasn't easy, and two years later, I'm still dealing with estate affairs.  I think a pwBPD couldn't handle something like that (i.e. act in someone else's best interests and be relied upon to execute the complicated administrative affairs), no way.  For context, I'm usually a very healthy person, and after the ordeal I had some health issues (insomnia, rashes, inflammation), which I think was a manifestation of the high stress of the situation, of course combined with issues with my BPD stepdaughter.

 86 
 on: June 12, 2026, 03:11:26 PM  
Started by NotHereButHere - Last post by NotHereButHere
Hello everyone,

I’m posting here again because I am seeing progress in my life around me. I’ve been doing things that I would never have been able to do while in the relationship like scheduling a dentist appointment to fix a broken tooth I’ve had for a few years, spending more time with my kids and they seem to be very happy without her, and taking care of legal issues she was always stopping me from working on. There is actual progress in my life, probably more than I ever made while we were together, but things still don’t seem quite right.

I think I’m adjusting to living outside of the fantasy space we had together. She was very focused on the way things looked, taking good pictures, making sure the house looked clean, and she was very pretty so it was all flashy from the outside looking in. But it is easy to forget or block out how bad things were when she was not putting on a performance.

I do see progress so I’m not completely down and hopeless or anything. I’m just not used to the ability to get bored anymore. Things have settled and I’m not used to things ever settling. I guess it will just take more time and I just need to keep up what I’m doing and the little changes over time will start to have an impact, right now it’s still just all work without the payoff but it will be worth it someday.

Just venting again, this community has helped me a lot over the years.

 87 
 on: June 12, 2026, 03:11:19 PM  
Started by Kuroko - Last post by ForeverDad
My ex wanted me to destroy myself to prove I loved her.  They have an empty cup with holes at bottom, and no matter how much love you pour in, it's never enough.   For one small no or even nothing at all, and they will imagine the worse then believe it.  It's tragic, it horribly sad, for the trauma they been through you know all they want is love, but love can't help this, only years of therapy.

Why didn't your years of positive presence make enough of a difference in her life?  BPD is a disorder most impacting to close emotional relationships.  And what is closer than being a couple?  Someone on the periphery of her life or an occasional contact may notice something "off" but once apart the encounter mostly fades. 

This is why you may think your separation has resolved your issues as a couple since the conflict is now mostly gone.  Don't be fooled.  The difference is the distance apart.  If you get back together without therapy having had a positive impact on her life and perceptions, then the prior up/down cycles will resume.

Why can a therapist be helpful when your years together failed?  She's been sensitized to you due to the extended close emotional relationship.  That's a lot of history - emotional baggage of the close relationship - that a person with BPD traits (pwBPD) has an immensely hard time getting past.  The difference a therapist makes is that therapist or counselor does not have an emotional relationship with a client.  The therapist maintains a professional relationship and does not become a friend.

The length of therapy is not the sole criteria.  Many here with spouses in therapy for years report no significant improvement.  That's why we speak of meaningful therapy that is diligently applied over extended time.  Showing up at sessions, even showing up for a few sessions, is not enough.

 88 
 on: June 12, 2026, 03:03:01 PM  
Started by Janine52 - Last post by hopefulbpdmom
I'm so sorry this is happening to you and I think everyone here can relate to this experience. I would recommend the book Stop Walking on Eggshells (the version for parents) as a great resource in understanding what's happening with your daughter, managing her splitting, and taking care of yourself while learning better communication and boundaries. Her illness is not your fault and it's not your responsibility to fix her. I think perhaps the hardest realization for me has been that all the enabling and caretaking I've done over the years - jumping into action when my daughter has a crisis - have prolonged and intensified her challenges rather than encouraged her to develop those skills directly. I've also given her a very shoddy frame of reference for how she can/should treat me. There's hope and this group will be here for you!

 89 
 on: June 12, 2026, 01:46:35 PM  
Started by Superdog - Last post by Pook075
I'm so sorry.  My ex wife also had BPD and that's likely why my oldest daughter developed it.  It is so very difficult but I never once thought about leaving because of our kids.  I don't know if that was the right move or not, to be honest.  I stood by her though until she left me for another man after 23 years of marriage.

I can't tell you what to do here because every relationship is different.  I fought so hard to restore my marriage for about a year, even though I knew she was unfaithful, she refused to return home, and she treated me like garbage.  Over time though, once I got over the codependence bond, I realized that so much of what I considered "regular life" was abusive and toxic. 

In your other post I just wrote that I had a heart attack in my early 50's due to the stress...I meant to type early 40's.

Once I decided that I was moving on and no longer looking backwards, I literally felt 20 years younger.  The stress and chaos was almost completely gone, although I did still have bad dreams from time to time.  I'm guessing that could be PTSD as well, but I never sought a diagnosis.  Today it doesn't exist though and I am very mentally healthy.

As a Christian, I'd say to try to save your marriage by learning to communicate in a different way.  The tips and tools sections at the top of this page are an excellent place to start.  That's the reason I never considered divorce though, because of my faith.  That's probably the only reason and I don't regret letting the kids grow up at home with mom and dad.  But man, I overlooked so much that was horrible in my life to make the marriage work.  I am very thankful that I'm in a different chapter of life now.

 90 
 on: June 12, 2026, 01:43:39 PM  
Started by ammabear - Last post by js friend
Hi ammabear,

Most of what you have written I could have written about my udd at the same age. I know how it feels when we try and try and nothing seems to stick., while to outsiders we are often criticised about our parenting.

For years my udd expressed how much she hated living at home. There were too many rules, it was like a prison, she wanted to leave and she wanted her freedom....all her words. She would stay out all night, rebelled against everything, had no interest in school even though she was top of her academic class and in the gifted programme, bullied other students and chased boys endlessly.
 
Just before her 18 birthday she chose to leave home and cleaned out her bedroom telling us that she would NEVER be back. Again this r/s didnt work out because she decided that she hated being alone all day (while b/f went to university) she hated doing any kind of housework and hated the Eresponsibilities of maintaining a home. B/f complained how messy udd was that she wouldnt even washup the dishes!. That one made me laugh because I knew it was true because udd  would usually make a scene and then storm out of my home when it came to her turn to washup,


Well she returned home several times since leaving but only for short periods but they were long enough to remind me of how much of a strain it had been when she lived here.

Today she is 32yo and has 3 children. We are currently estranged so I dont know too  much about her daily life now other than that she has lived at the same address for over 10years and has successfully maintained a home, paid her bills, has a car and has been in  relationship that has lasted 5+ years so I see this as a success.

So what Iam trying to say is that you need to let your child find his way in life. If he wont comply with basic rules, cant be civil or help around your home and he feels that you are holding him back then it is time to let him see for himself how hard life is outside of your home. You also need to find some peace in your life and be able to enjoy the little things again. One of the things I really appreciate and enjoy in life after having so much choas in my life now is silence. I now know that I tried my best and nothing would have changed udd being the child/ adult that she is.





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