I wanted to apologize because I misread your post and made a mistake:
Prior to the r/s, there were few red flags, virtually none of which I could have expected myself to notice. However, during the r/s there were a TON, you're right. I keep a voice recorder journal where I record my thoughts almost every day, and listening over them, I shook my head and laughed: I lost count of how many red flags I talked about. In one of my recordings, after our first fight, I said "I don't know why but I have a feeling this r/s isn't going to last long." Hindsight is 20/20 eh?
So, my bad: Yes, during the r/s there were a TON of red flags.
I agree. Everyone has their own unique ways of communicating it. Lol
I was never interested in abnormal psychology until recently. I'm more into developmental and educational. I'm taking a keen interest in people's reactions to my situation here.
I think everyone here is looking out for your best interests. Also most of the members that have been here a while understand BPD fairly well (we arent pros but... ) So we also look out for a pwBPD. I didnt see anything in 2010 comment that suggested you have BPD. Frankly I am very glad you are here because of the fact that you are a student of psychology. You will have a gift of knowledge from this sight you dont get from a classroom if you spend enough time here.
Have you had a chance to look this over...
Workshop - BPD: Understanding the borderline mind/what's in the head of someone with BPD?How about this one...
Workshop - BPD: How can I get someone to see a therapist or to get into treatment?There are tons of lessons and workshops here just for your understanding and growth.
This is all at your fingertips... .do with it what you will.
Take care of you
The kicker to all of this. Is if you truly do, discover your truth. All of this sticks out like a sore thumb. Chances are pretty good, there were many red flags, all through out your r/s. People can act, for only a certain amount of time, and even then they will tell, and show, whom they really are, including you, me and everybody else. Maybe you will take a keen intrest, in finding your truth. One does not have to meet you, to see what you are telling them. They are your words. Words that you have carefully typed. Look through, just this post, it tells plenty, whether you realize it or not. You have talked about her, and it is really about you... .PEACE
