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« on: March 02, 2013, 01:41:16 PM »

Hey guys,

I broke down in therapy yesterday.

We were talking about letters of empathy i wrote to my family a long time ago.

I just lost it... .  seriously i didn't know i had it within me to cry that hard.

I felt an emotional release... .  and I am just pretty raw these days.

I just want to heal and not be in pain anymore.

I am tired of analyizing and analyzing the psychology of myself and others.

I am tired of worrying about how I make others feel all the time, instead of how I feel.

I just want to heal and be at peace with myself again... .  when i have had those brief moments of oneness with myself, it feels a lot better.

I am trying to accept things for what they are and look for solutions and that is easier than fighting against what is.

I am tired of looking at the cracks in the glass and just want to see clearly again... .  the big picture, and not fight so hard to fix broken glass cutting myself over and over again.

I am greiving for a messed up childhood, and a masochistic personality that I would not have chosen for myself.

I care about myself, and I deserve to be taken care of... .  so I will do that instead of projecting my own needs on to others.

I will embrace my emotions and allow myself to feel them... .  and try not to react out of defense and panic... .  and just allow myself to feel my way through things again... .  back in those rare moments when I trusted in myself, and acted in alignment with what I felt was "the greatest good" I did much better... .  than when I allowed myself to be influenced by the ideals of others, and or lost my sight of what my "greatest good" was... somewhere along the path.


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« Reply #1 on: March 02, 2013, 02:17:56 PM »

I just want to heal and not be in pain anymore.

I am tired of analyizing and analyzing the psychology of myself and others.

I am tired of worrying about how I make others feel all the time, instead of how I feel.

I just want to heal and be at peace with myself again... .  when i have had those brief moments of oneness with myself, it feels a lot better.

I am trying to accept things for what they are and look for solutions and that is easier than fighting against what is.

I am tired of looking at the cracks in the glass and just want to see clearly again... .  the big picture, and not fight so hard to fix broken glass cutting myself over and over again.

I am greiving for a messed up childhood, and a masochistic personality that I would not have chosen for myself.

Be patient and kind to you during this time stoic, this is the work.

I care about myself, and I deserve to be taken care of... .  so I will do that instead of projecting my own needs on to others.

I will embrace my emotions and allow myself to feel them... .  and try not to react out of defense and panic... .  and just allow myself to feel my way through things again... .  back in those rare moments when I trusted in myself, and acted in alignment with what I felt was "the greatest good" I did much better... .  than when I allowed myself to be influenced by the ideals of others, and or lost my sight of what my "greatest good" was... somewhere along the path.

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