Learning to accept letting go just because my gut feeling tells me so.
Compassionate withdraw. No running away.
Not sacrificing my own needs or doubts to fix another person.
Not being afraid to stand up for myself.
Loving me.
You wrote this two weeks ago. From the other comments, and how I know I feel, up and down is part of the process.
Learning to accept letting go just because my gut feeling tells me so.Always, always follow your gut. And your gut sounds like it is saying you miss him ( of course you do - you loved him ) but your gut says stay the h-e -double hockey sticks away. I would listen to that second voice.
Compassionate withdraw. No running away.That is some serious stuff and I am in pain for it but I am not running away. I am facing it head on. If you're not there yet, it's okay. If you are, great too. You don't have to race your healing against anyone else's.
Not sacrificing my own needs or doubts to fix another person.AMEN! Ironically, there is a song that my pwBPD loved that said "I live in Crazytown and I'm married to the mayor." I never told him but that's how I felt, except I was not married to him. Thank God. Actually, that whole song was familiar to me. He'd frequently tell me he was sending me 'messages' with the songs he'd give me.
[bNot being afraid to stand up for myself.][/b]
You are standing up for yourself when every minute goes by that you have remained NC.
Loving me.Please let me know how to do this one when you figure it out.