It's hard...

[truthdevotee]

I haven’t been able to be very strategic. Even though I’m running 7km daily for health, eating well, and taking Xanax to calm myself as well as practicing self compassion, in told the boys in front of her this morning what I’m planning and I made it sound like an adventure. Reaffirming my tremendous love for them and that we see each other every week as long as she doesn’t try to put obstacles.

Sadly I’m not in a good position given my own behaviour of late. My lifeline may be my psychiatrist who I’ve been diligently working with for years and who recognises my partner’s behaviour is abnormal even though she can’t admit to that or see it.

I can’t wait to get away and be at peace. Exhausted