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Question: What is the total score for your answers?
76-88 /Extreme depression - 78 (6.5%)
51-75 /Severe depression - 299 (24.7%)
26-50 /Moderate depression - 455 (37.6%)
11-25 /Mild depression - 214 (17.7%)
6-10 /Unhappy (no dep) - 91 (7.5%)
0-5 /No depression - 72 (6%)
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« Reply #360 on: October 26, 2010, 03:08:11 AM »

I am at a 6, whew, thought I would never get to this point. Still not the old perky self but no longer feeling like sticking my head in the wash machine to clean out the   in my mind.

I feel clearer and happier, stronger.

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« Reply #361 on: October 26, 2010, 11:42:39 PM »

This keeps popping up in my topics because I took this test in August, 2008.  I scored in the 40's back then.

Things got significantly better for me and then... .life got crappy -- really, really crappy.

Now here I am - over two years after the first time I took this test - and I scored 60. The score concerns me because I have battled clinical depression before and it is a hard fight. 

I know that at one point, I would have scored much, much lower... .then life started smacking me around and I seem to be losing the will to fight or to try.

This has nothing to do with the long gone (thank God) BPD in my life.  I guess the bright side is that if I was dealing with the full plate of ___ that I'm dealing with now, and still had him to deal with too, I'd be hauled off by the men in white coats.

I know it's a season... .that it will pass... .that I will rise above it.  History proves that this is true. But I wonder when... .and how.  I'm weary and discouraged and have seem to lost my hope and my optimism. I hate that.

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« Reply #362 on: October 27, 2010, 03:09:44 AM »

A year ago I think I was extemely depressed and close to heart attackville, stress and depressed. (One of my co-workers who was also married to a Russian was having some major problems with his wife, he did have a stress related heart attack and he passed away at work several months ago)

Today, No depression.

Overall, I am very Fuzzy... .the warm kind of Fuzzy... .

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no longer feeling like sticking my head in the wash machine

Good thing I am a man, I would never have thought of that one... .Smiling (click to insert in post)

Of course without this reminder I would have forgotten washing machines even exist (I live in Thailand and unfortunately I no longer have to clean house, cook or wash clothes)  Smiling (click to insert in post)

I hope that comment doesnt make anyone have to   or   or heaven forbid make them feel like 

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« Reply #363 on: October 27, 2010, 12:26:05 PM »

no longer feeling like sticking my head in the wash machine

I'm not a mental health professional, but that's probably a good thing.

Shane
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« Reply #364 on: October 27, 2010, 07:07:28 PM »

I scored 8. I cannot believe it! I have not been posting on the board since a few and did not realize how much things have changed and how much better I feel. Thanks!
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« Reply #365 on: October 27, 2010, 08:54:01 PM »

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Of course without this reminder I would have forgotten washing machines even exist (I live in Thailand and unfortunately I no longer have to clean house, cook or wash clothes) 



Yes, we should all be so burdened.   Smiling (click to insert in post)


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I'm not a mental health professional, but that's probably a good thing.

LOL

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« Reply #366 on: October 27, 2010, 08:54:58 PM »

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I'm weary and discouraged and have seem to lost my hope and my optimism. I hate that.

Hang in there Turtle. It is a long haul but you will get there.

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« Reply #367 on: October 28, 2010, 05:44:54 AM »

An interesting test,even though the X has been on my mind this week I scored a 5,pleased about that.

Like most of us I have suffered from deep depression in the past but not for a long time now,life is pretty good really.
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« Reply #368 on: October 28, 2010, 09:36:46 AM »

I scored a 4.

Therapy is a very good thing.  Doing the right thing (click to insert in post)
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« Reply #369 on: October 28, 2010, 01:07:53 PM »

"18". Retaking the test, reflecting back 1 year ago, I was at "46" so I feel good about the progress I am making.  Doing the right thing (click to insert in post)
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« Reply #370 on: October 29, 2010, 11:44:52 AM »

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18". Retaking the test, reflecting back 1 year ago, I was at "46" so I feel good about the progress I am making

Doing the right thing (click to insert in post)

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Therapy is a very good thing. 



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« Reply #371 on: January 03, 2011, 11:48:21 AM »

12/8/09:  High, but didn't record

1/8/10: 18

3/7/10: 15

4/17/10: 25 (aftermath of tax day?  court decision pending; dissatisfied with L; false evidence certified by stbxw)

9/9/10: 15

1/3/11:  16
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« Reply #372 on: January 03, 2011, 11:50:31 AM »

8/24/08  19

6/30/09  28

8/25/09  21

9/15/09  15

12/6/09  20

2/12/10  17

4/2/10    7

9/9/10    4

1/3/11    7
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« Reply #373 on: January 03, 2011, 04:48:01 PM »

26.  I'm 3.5 months out of a 15-month relationship.  I'm okay with where I am because I know I'm definitely on the upswing.
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« Reply #374 on: January 03, 2011, 05:39:13 PM »

I find the struggles daily with dhBPD. I would leave today if I had financial means. Im seeing a T now and that helps a bit but ultimately I know I need to disengage from him in order to get whole again. We've been married 4 yrs prior to this marriage i was married almost 17yrs. The last 5 yrs of that marriage was with an abusive alcoholic. Ya Im not feeling so great about me these days. But I keep trying. New hair cut, some nice clothes Smiling (click to insert in post) Im trying. Ive been building a cash stash but not enough yet. Today is not a good day. Tomorrow will be better.
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« Reply #375 on: January 04, 2011, 02:15:11 PM »

I scored a 63.  So I guess I am not doing to well right now.
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« Reply #376 on: January 04, 2011, 03:41:32 PM »

I scored a 63.  So I guess I am not doing to well right now.

That's pretty high.  (I'm not sure how I got because I didn't find this test till I was on the mend.)

Are you seeing a counselor?

To get a score this high you must have scored pretty high on some of the really scary parts, like thinking about hurting yourself.  Are you having thoughts like that?
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« Reply #377 on: January 04, 2011, 03:54:49 PM »

Matt, no I don't want to hurt myself all those were 0's, maybe I over rated some of the others? I don't want to do anything to help my uBPDh right now and don't care or think I don't care what he thinks does or how he feels. Not very motivated at home,nothing is much fun. Do what I have to do to take care of the kids. I still bathe,do my hair, change my clothes.Don't feel pretty,smart,useful,caredfor,listened to, wanted around,needed... .Sounds like to me I am feeling sorry for myself, Intelecually I say quit feeling sorry for yourself,do something,   Don't have the energy or know what to do. Maybe I don't want to.

No I am not seeing a counselor, can't afford to. (He doesn't want to) I was but money way to tight.
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« Reply #378 on: January 04, 2011, 04:07:52 PM »

Matt, no I don't want to hurt myself all those were 0's, maybe I over rated some of the others? I don't want to do anything to help my uBPDh right now and don't care or think I don't care what he thinks does or how he feels. Not very motivated at home,nothing is much fun. Do what I have to do to take care of the kids. I still bathe,do my hair, change my clothes.Don't feel pretty,smart,useful,caredfor,listened to, wanted around,needed... .Sounds like to me I am feeling sorry for myself, Intelecually I say quit feeling sorry for yourself,do something,   :)on't have the energy or know what to do. Maybe I don't want to.

No I am not seeing a counselor, can't afford to. (He doesn't want to) I was but money way to tight.

Y, let me suggest to you that you go to this board:  https://bpdfamily.com/message_board/index.php?board=27.0 - our "Taking personal inventory board" - and post the same stuff.  Lots of us have been through something like this, more or less, and I think you can get some ideas to help you pull through it.  Nothing magic but others on that board gave me a lot of practical ideas that helped me when I was at my lowest.

Best wishes,

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« Reply #379 on: February 03, 2011, 07:38:18 PM »

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« Reply #380 on: February 04, 2011, 01:39:05 PM »

In Nov. 2009 I was at "46", Oct. 2010 I was at "18" and now I am a solid "3"!  Doing the right thing (click to insert in post) Here is the surprising point however, my outlook on the viability of the long term of my relationship has not changed - It's still a toss up at best. This tells me I have accepted many of the facts that I know I was in denial with for such a long, long time. And although I want things to work out I know that it may very well not and I can now accept that.
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« Reply #381 on: February 04, 2011, 02:34:13 PM »

Went from 29 to 10 in the past month. 

Feelin' stronger by the day... .
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« Reply #382 on: February 07, 2011, 12:17:52 PM »

2 Years ago to about 8 months ago... .I was scoring high 60s and even into the high 70's... .

Today I am at 26!  Doing the right thing (click to insert in post)   I am still with my uBPDbf, however, over the last couple of years I have learned about BPD and have come to start to accept his illness for what it is.

I have come to accept life for what it is... .I don't torment myself to be "perfect" for him... .because there is no perfect.

I have come A LONG LONG WAY!  and I am proud of myself... .there are setbacks, however I have managed to pull my mental health out of the Toilet and learn to cope and accept myself for who I am.   

Thanks to FACING THE FACTS FOR ALL YOUR SUPPORT AND EDUCATION!  Smiling (click to insert in post) Smiling (click to insert in post)

Without them... .who knows where I would be today !  Hi!
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« Reply #383 on: February 10, 2011, 05:36:42 PM »

25... .not so bad. I'm sure my score is plummeting also. I have 4 in making decisions, Motivation, and loss of interest at work. I am just starting to work on those issues now. So there is 12 I can turn around.
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« Reply #384 on: February 20, 2011, 05:06:29 PM »

45. Ouch. Yup, sounds about right  Laugh out loud (click to insert in post) 
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« Reply #385 on: February 20, 2011, 09:06:20 PM »

I was amazed that I only scored 8!  So much of it has to do with having a customer service job that I love!  When I first started this job part of the training was going out and introducing myself to other employees.  I almost quit on the spot, I thought I don't want to talk to people, but it has been so healing starting with a large group of people that don't know my BPDxh.  Life IS good!
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« Reply #386 on: February 20, 2011, 10:05:33 PM »

skip,

7 months nc.  If you had sent this out earlier... .3 and 4's in some areas.  Mostly 0, 1's now.

this sight is definitely a positive factor in my healing and recovery.

I am eternally grateful.
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« Reply #387 on: March 15, 2011, 01:26:40 PM »

44 today. I will retest in a month and see if I've improved.

He left almost 3 months ago... .I dont think I'm doing any better than that time.
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« Reply #388 on: March 15, 2011, 03:13:06 PM »

8 down from 25. I'm almost there!
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« Reply #389 on: March 15, 2011, 03:22:36 PM »

I'm waaaaayyyyy up there... .in the 80's.  Long way to go.  :'(
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